For me i think that when people hear the words “Prove yourself” their meaning to that is they have to prove to someone else whatever it is they have to prove. So an example of that meaning is, if your mother would say prove yourself that you can be trusted, you would obviously do what you have to do to prove to her that you can be trusted right?? Where as my meaning to “prove yourself” is simply just that!! Proving to MYSELF not to anyone else. Why do i have to prove myself to anyone else?? What joy does it bring me to bring that proof to them? How am i helping myself mentally by proving anything to THEM?? Those are the questions i have to ask myself and i can honestly answer all those questions no matter the situation, with pretty much i don’t have to prove shit!!! I don’t have to prove anything to anyone but myself. Why do i have to prove it to myself? I don’t have to do that either, but the fact that i can is a much greater feeling than knowing i tried to prove it to them.
The twisted part i think is when you set yourself up to fail. You fail because you think there’s someone you HAVE to prove it to, it’s almost like if you didn’t prove it to them that you were on death row. It’s much harder to cope and try to prove anything because your doing it for them. Until that moment you realize “why the fuck am i doing it”?
So when that time comes when someone says “prove yourself” think of a different angle, do it whatever they’re asking you to prove, but do it so you prove to your own self that it can be done. They don’t even need to see or know that you’ve proven it, the point is that you know within yourself that you “proved yourself” you just didn’t give them that satisfaction of knowing that you did.